Watch the way you gaze at him and how you hold your heart,
Imagine all the hope you stole but how you're torn apart.
Remember all the days you whispered love songs in his ear,
Pretend you're back in time instead of wiping away tears.
Wearing sleeves which show your flesh and imprints of fading scars,
Learning love ain't what it seems while watching him from afar.
You know that he's seen the marks, the lines upon your wrist,
He knows that with a single word you cannot resist.

Wondering where it went wrong and how the pain is made,
Deciphering his love-lorn code and chase away the days.
Wish away an endless night and wish that he would call,
Scarring skin to break the daze or try to end it all.
Wearing a mask to hide away the glimmer in your eye,
Breaking promises and bearing guilt, you cannot say goodbye.
Remember all the times he said "I love you" with a kiss,
Smell his scent upon his clothes and taste his tear-stained lips.

Cut the dreams away again, bleed for him though endless,
Pretending that he's here again, dying in distress.
Remember all the times he held your hand as though it worthy,
Thoughts of how he made you cry and deem yourself dirty.
Count the times you stare at him as you inflict another line,
Wanting all night to hide away or to stop the love and die.
You know that no matter what, he'll never say he loves you,
But you'll live and hope and won't give up, it's far too much you've been through.

What he sees is what he gets, including the messed up state you're in,
He cannot see the perfection you hold, the beauty deep within.
You've been before but now it's dead, and how you wish to be,
Breaking up can kill a soul for all eternity.
Maybe the blade can control you but it will never claim such boy,
Fingering the blood stained silver, a lifetime now destroyed.
Imagine running your blackened fingers through his perfect hair,
Gaze at him like you did back then, when you both forever stared.

Soon enough the penny will drop, the comments that he made
Remind you of why you're here, why you remained and stayed.
Ignore the reasons why you care and just accept the signs as true,
Remember that he once showed love and wanted to please you.
Pretend that the jigsaw fits again or that you were not betrayed,
Succumb to the memory of when you cried, gave in, and hell, just prayed.
Murder the queen who stands in your way, despair depicted on a knife,
The journey you are soon to embark may just take your life.

Wishing again that it will end or he'll let his soul mate in,
Pretend it isn't over and feel his perfect unflawed skin.
Read his lips and mouth his words, every phrase is sacred,
He'll always know that you are waiting, he'll always know you bled.
Hold in your head the way you picture yourself with your arms around him,
Remember the times that you had faith even when all hope was dim.
Never let the promise go, you said that you'd be forever,
But soon you'll let the illusion go, you'll never be together.